every time i avoid working on my reapp, i'm just hit with wishful thinking that i'll get off the waitlist. but i need to get a grip.

orientation is in 2 weeks. classes start in 3. there is such a small chance that i'd get off the waitlist, but i feel like i can't truly give up until i get that rejection email.

don't worry--i'm not an idiot. i already submitted my primary app. just wishing things could be different though as i work on prewriting secondaries.