I just need a rant. I feel like I did everything right. 4.0/522 traditional student, plenty of clinical hours, 3 years of research, tons of community leadership. I feel like I was the quintessential premed but I wasn’t just a bookworm, I lived my life in every aspect that mattered to me to the fullest (educational, social, athletic) and loved it. Until I applied. These past 10 months have decimated my mental health; Struggling to come up with a cohesive application, constant stress of checking portals, and ultimate disappointment.

I am very likely not getting in this cycle. I had a single II from a T5 early on in the cycle but by this point they have released most acceptances so I’m likely facing R/WL.

I really don’t know where to go from here. I’ve been staring at my personal statement and I loathe the thought of having to rewrite everything. I don’t know how to interpret this, if my application was bad why did I get that interview. What am I supposed to change, I don’t get what is expected of me. I love medicine and I want more than anything to work in this field but this hurdle of writing and submitting applications feels insurmountable. I feel like medical schools just aren’t looking for me as an applicant. I don’t know if I reapply straight away or take a year to build experience to talk about. I just don’t know what I am supposed to do.