for the longest time i went back and forth on whether or not im too awkward to be a doctor, ngl. but applied and got in anyway...i figured im gonna be awkward no matter what so, we ball.

doesn't help that i'm shy by nature and i've had a few ppl ask me if i "hated them"(?) when they initially met me...honestly i dont, i just don't know what to say 85% of the time and it takes me a hot minute to open up to people. (once i do i like to think that im pretty funny and i love joking around)

i've worked a lot of patient-facing roles over the years (nursing home, then i transitioned to working as a palliative care scribe), which has helped me to come out of my shell a bit, but still definitley having some struggle. even my hands get sweaty, face gets red sometimes lol. it takes some effort to even smile fully.

maybe im being too hard on myself? idk

shy/awkward people unite!!