Think I’ve done all I can this cycle, truly. 1 II -> 1 WL, 2 update letters. Months and months of refreshing this, Reddit, SDN, and my inbox. I know it’s mid May and basically over, but part of me is struggling to accept that/accept that I have to reapply. By no means am I stellar, but 8 years and two degrees/job/ECs later I was really hoping it’d work. Took me years to even have the confidence to take the MCAT and apply. Not seeking advice or help, just a void to yap into. First gen. Lots of confusion, doubt, and stress/anxiety. Guess those feelings were all right. Unfortunate first time for my gut feeling to be right. So happy for everyone else, but heartbroken for myself. The pity party will end soon, and back to it like nothing happened I guess. Process is brutal. Just putting myself out there both for me to feel like I got it out and so others like me feel less alone. At most, this new cycle is all I have left in me, so I just want to move on and hope for the best.