i do not know what its like to live without anxiety anymore. like the wait is genuinely killing me. I did not expect much from the cycle but I was overjoyed to get an interview thinking all this work i put in was worth it. and then it turned into a WL and ik there is hope but somehow that is worse because I cant fully commit to the reapp either. and everyday is a constant state of stress. as a first gen student in medicine and parents who did not go to college I just want to make them proud but this is mentally so taxing i feel like a chud smh