im so pissed at myself for taking a gap year. i know my application needed it but maybe I would've gotten in and I could've avoided this whole private loan situation. I should've applied to Texas schools. I don't wanna live in Texas but maybe I would've gotten into those med schools and could pay much less. i should've retaken my mcat. my score is good but not good enough for merit scholarships and I wish I knew that back then. I should've done more extracurriculars and built up my application. I was so stupid omfg I can feel the crushing weight of it everyday