Fuck my life and fuck this process and fuck medicine. nothing is in my control anymore and it never will be again, I am traumatized. This cycle has convinced me of my ineptitude as a human being (clinical, educational, emotional, and socially…) leading me to believe I am and will always be nothing. All I’ve ever wanted to be in my life is a doctor and these schools keep playing with my fucking life. Why can’t I have my moment in the fucking sun and why not me? Protect your peace.