I've started to get sour. I genuinely used to be happy when I saw people's acceptances and Sankeys. I've helped people with tips about the one interview I've had. But now all I can think about when I see people getting accepted into their dream schools is resentment and dread.

My family and friends think I'm crazy. I might be. I keep getting told about the great doctors and really smart people we know who didn't get in their first cycle. It doesn't make me feel better at all.

I didn't post this to ask or shame people to stop celebrating their As or accomplishments. Sincere congratulations to everyone. I just needed to vent. I know there are people who feel like me, people who lash out at other people's comments sections here and on Reddit and quickly delete their comments because they know they're wrong. And people are bashing them back, maybe deservedly. I just wanted to ask you guys to be a little nicer to those people. Hopelessness turns you into a sour person, it seems.

this post reads like a psychotic break but im not editing it