I knew applying was going to be brutal.

I knew the waiting is so hard.

But I am starting to hit my limit.

I am grateful to have received 5 interviews, 3 in September and 2 in January. However, I have received 4 post II holds or WLs and I am starting to lose hope.

With 5 interviews I assumed it was going to work out, but it really feels impossible and that an A is never going to come.

Every weekday I anxiously wait for some email or call just to be disappointed.

I think I am a good interviewer, and I know I come off as very extroverted.

I’m just so done of waiting to hear back from these schools to be inevitably disappointed.

And of course this happened on the worst shift at my CNA job the past year. I am losing it yall.

Sorry for the vent