don't get me wrong im usually a calm and gentle person but the past few months with the stress of waiting on updates from schools and my family not understanding how difficult this process is

i feel like ive just been lashing out, even at my siblings and parents

pushing people away because i don't want to have to talk about my cycle and how miserable i am (and face the embarrassment of getting post II R's in the future and having to tell ppl that)

i feel like my brain is always just running on 1000x speed and its so hard to escape

does it get better?