y'all this is not real. Why am I exhibiting the exact same behaviors as me from a year ago when I was going through a soul crushing situationship . Constantly checking admit/SDN, going to bed early + taking naps in hopes of seeing a II or A in my inbox, and feeling my heart race whenever I get notification, only to be faced by disappointment when it's an email from Sallie Mae congratulating me on being invited to apply for an UNDERGRADUATE loan. please send help ;-;