im just so sad that this is the state that im in, this cycle was probably one of the most challenging years of my life to go through. its so hard because i know people are rooting for me and i just have no updates to give -- it feels like i am disappointing others on top of myself. all my friends have gotten in and moved out of the city, and im the last one left. going through the next cycle on my own feels really depressing while other people's chapters are moving on without me :( i know there's still hope but wow i never expected life to play me like this fr lol