i don't even know how to act. doesn't feel real. im a reapp, so med school just feels like this weird fantasized mount olympus that now im actually going to be doing. like its been on the forefront of my mind for nearly 2 years now, constantly yearning for this peace of mind and satisfaction, and now its here. ive done so much research on what each school has to offer and the nuances of each program, it almost feels like im more knowledgeable on med school programs at this point than i am of medicine and my connection to it. im over the moon, dont get me wrong, but the gameification/strategization of the cycle has left me feeling a little removed from my personal aspirations themselves. i feel as though i need to work to ground myself in them once again? but is that chasing a feeling that isnt even real? idk, might be tweakin