I feel pathetic. Constantly checking admit, sdn and my email hoping to receive good news. Can’t focus on work because I haven’t slept properly in weeks. I hate the feeling that I didn’t try hard enough. I hate the lack of transparency. Any statement from adcoms letting us know where they are in their process would be helpful. But no, they don’t think we deserve that. It sucks. I’m so sorry to be so negative, I’m just feeling awful