hi everyone, i usually comment with my profile visible but don’t wanna doxx myself here. this past week has been very difficult for me; i’m a graduate student at Brown, and even though i wasn’t near the campus area where the incident took place, i feel so horrible just reading about the victims and keeping updates on the whole situation. i work in the ED on overnight shifts so everyone there has been talking about it. i also had a stalker situation and shooter alarm during my undergraduate time so i get very panicky/paranoid during situations like this. i know that there are likely other Brown students on here, so just wanted to say i’m here for you and you can feel free to vent in the comment section.

for more med-related stuff, i woke up today to 3 rejections, now leaving me at 10 R’s and 4 holds. 0 interviews. i come from a very high-achieving family that is drilling me about what’s going on with my application and why i haven’t gotten in to medical school. i feel very crushed about the weight of all of this, and even though i have resigned myself to the prospect of re-applying, it still hurts and i’m not doing the best. compounded with the stuff above, i lost my younger brother to mental health reasons when i was in undergrad and in a way i wanted to get into medical school/become a psychiatrist to honor his memory, and now i feel like i’m unable to or don’t deserve to.

i have made quite a few posts on here and have gotten some incredible feedback. i’m grateful to all of you. thank you