so grateful to be admitted.

but I’m just now finding out that my credit is too new to apply for a private loan myself to cover the rest of my COA. AND my only potential co-signers are drowning in debt and bad credit and can’t actually help me get the loan either (they denied it). I’m reaching out to my school’s financial aid office, but I don’t know how much help they can offer me. Desperately looking for small scholarship opportunities, but I know realistically my best bet is hpsp … which I am not interested in at allllll. I’ll strap in and do what I have to do to become a physician, but I’m not thrilled at the moment.

just ranting to the admit void —- how can i look irl friends and family members (who were very happy for me!) in the eye and tell them that im actually sad and quite anxious about the whole thing right now?

thanks for listening . 🥲