I'm super thankful to have gotten multiple interviews to schools I really would love to attend but I can't stop stressing over how possible it would be for me to go 0/3 on these interviews. I feel like they went really really well but I can't help but worry about not having an A yet and I likely won't hear back from these schools for a while. I hate how nothing is left in my hands.

I'm literally sitting refreshing my email still hoping to get another ii even though these are some of my top choices. I could easily see a world where I just get a few post-ii Rs and I'm stuck feeling awful for an entire extra year. Like I would have tasted my actual dream. I would have gotten so close and fallen so so so far.