i haven't really been on reddit, admit, or sdn in over a month, and i've been so happy that i wouldn't even mind taking another gap year, but the fact is that i have to retake the fuckin mcat because mine expires. i'm in WL limbo (3 IIs in July, Aug, Oct; 1 R, 1 WL, 1 ghosting me but prob WL) and would have to start studying before i'd realistically hear back from either WL.

after 2 interviews by early Aug i thought i was chilling but now i'm staring down an MCAT retake and have to tell people daily (work, family) that i haven't gotten in and have no idea if or when i will. love this! at least my gap year hobbies are fulfilling. time to get that admit sobriety streak back up and try to forget i even applied...

i'm a reapplicant and went from not being able to stand the thought of this gap year to absolutely loving my job and not wanting to leave this summer, and i honestly don't want to quit the hobbies i've picked up either, but staring down the MCAT and hearing 'did you hear anything from med schools' is getting to me. i also have a chronic injury that flared up in Oct and is getting worse now which kind of derails my volunteering plans. oh well we endure