I'm on two waitlists right now, but it's really looking grim, so I'm rewriting my essays for next cycle. I remember being here a year ago, so full of hope and optimism for this past cycle. I thought at that time that in a year I would know exactly where I was going, what I would be doing for the next year. Well, it's been a year, and the only thing I know is that I'm right back where I started. I'm trying to accept the reality of reapplication, but I just keep thinking why? why didn't it work? Why do I have to go back and rewrite all these essays? I dont know man... I just dont know anymore