okay so story time... grab ya popcorn

got a late interview invite last week. I originally scheduled the interview for Friday (today). Tuesday rolls around and I notice the link for the virtual meeting changed to taking place Wednesday… the next day. So my interview time was moved up 2 days earlier than I scheduled it, no one reached out to me first about this btw, and it happened to be when I was scheduled to work my job.

Reached out via email to the school about it, and scrambled to swap shifts with a coworker to be available for the new time just in case. Wednesday morning they responded to my email confirming the new time (not addressing how insensitive it was to do that in the first place) and after getting home from the earlier shift I swapped for… they changed the interview time AGAIN an hour before it was supposed to take place to the next day Thursday (yesterday). I emailed asking if the time had moved again to confirm and joined the meeting just in case but of course no one showed. but at least there was a warning that would happen even tho it still sucked since I basically swapped shifts for no reason.

Yesterday I woke up and they responded to my email confirming it would take place at the new time yesterday. fast forward to interview time and I sat in that meeting for over an hour but no one showed. But this time it gets better because the time for the meeting never changed so this happened actually without any prior notice whatsoever….. i’m so sick of this process. i was truly left on read for an interview lol.

woke up today to an email saying "my apologies we can reschedule you for the 27th"... like sure! i'm scheduled to work but i'll make the arrangements to attend I just hope someone actually shows this time. third times a charm i guess ???

school’s think they can just do whatever they want. they expect us to have jobs and experiences THAT TAKE SO MUCH TIME AND SOME OF US RELY ON FINANCIALLY but also expect us to be at their beck and call and reschedule meetings to whenever they want because they know we’ll show up. all I want is the A. all I want is the get my life started. my WL school has been silent since last week so this could be my last true shot of getting in this cycle and not delaying life by another year WHEN IVE ALREADY HAD MULTIPLE GAP YEARS.

After no one joined the meeting i just sat there and cried. my bf consoled me and we got taco bell and finished watching a movie because I needed a mental refresher. but i just keep thinking to myself “i wish I was good enough for the 2 schools that already interviewed me and that my interview skills were better so I could withdraw my application from this school and move on. i just wish I was better at this process or stood out more to make ONE SCHOOL find me worthy of an A after all the things i've done and years of preparation."

i will be ecstatic to apply DO next cycle at this point because then maybe a school would want me and i can just stay in state. instead of fighting for my life with these out of state MD schools that are great schools but clearly don't want me part of their class...but at the same time also haven't cut me off the string just yet. being in that weird limbo at one school while another school is playing extremely hard to get and inconsiderate has genuinely been the worst thing i've experienced throughout this process !!! schools know how much this means to applicants and are doing things a little too haphazardly. I feel like the A is being dangled in front of my face at this point. this process is genuinely terribly organized and executed IM OVER IT

edit: name of school is in the comments if ur curious. This is frustrating, but of course, I'll go if it's my only A. I don't really have the money to waste on reapplying if I don't need to. P.S. I just did their separate MMI interview ... it was only 2 questions long that definitely weren't in the regular style I prepped for ... and I was rushed off the meeting after 15 minutes lol